Noah's Rainbow

  August 7, 2020 To my Rainbow Baby, Today, I am 11 weeks pregnant! It has been a rough week for your mommy, physically and emotionally. My nausea is the worst it has been throughout my pregnancy so far. Most of what I have read says that the peak of morning sickness is between 8 and 10 weeks, so I am hoping this is the last hoorah before things start to wind down, especially since I am returning to work in 3 days (more on that later). Each time the nausea sweeps over me and my stomach threatens- or succeeds- at losing its contents, I try to remember that it is because my hormones are raging to make everything perfect and safe for you, so that you can grow healthy and strong. When I get to the end of all the discomforts of pregnancy, when I hold you in my arms, it will all be worth it. Sometimes, it’s hard to be grateful in the middle of such miserable sickness, but I’m hanging in there! It’s been an emotional rollercoaster this week, too. Preparing to return to work- right now jus...

  August 14, 2020 To my Rainbow Baby, Today, I am 12 weeks pregnant! Your mommy has not been this exhausted so far in this pregnancy! I went back to work on Monday, and it was a big adjustment. I have not had to go to my school building to work since March 12th, which was the day before I had my egg retrieval that ultimately led to you! On March 12th, the governor announced that schools would be shutting down for 3 weeks, in the hopes that communities could get a handle on this pandemic. I began working for home to run my classes online, praying that I would see my students face-to-face again soon. We never returned to our buildings to finish the school year together. Almost 5 months to the day later, I returned to work in my class knowing that it would not be filled with students any time soon, but it was nice to have a bit of normalcy by getting up and going into school each day. But after 5 days of that, I am BEAT! I almost fell asleep doing some yoga when I got home this aftern...

August 21, 2020 To my Rainbow Baby, Today, I am 13 weeks pregnant! I am starting to get antsy about how you are doing in my tummy. It has been 6 weeks since we saw you as a little peanut and heard your tiny heartbeat pounding away. I have one week to go until I have my first appointment with the doctor at my OB office. And I am anxious for that moment. I want to know that you are flourishing in there, little one. That you are growing the way you should be, that your heartbeat is still strong, that we are coming to the end of this nervous-wrecking first trimester with joy and hope about one day holding you snug in our arms. Most of the time, I feel confident in God’s plan for all of this. I trust that He is keeping you safe and helping you to grow. I believe that the desires on my heart to share this journey with others is from Him, and that He will allow that plan to come to fruition with a healthy pregnancy- it would be pretty hard to share with women going through pregnancy after a l...