Noah's Rainbow

  February 11, 2023 To my Rainbow Henry, You are two years old! Any entire year has flown by in the blink of an eye and you have officially left the baby stage of your life. You are becoming a rambunctious, smart, funny, sweet toddler and we are just in love with watching you grow and learn and show off your personality. It is truly a delight to be your mama and I’m so grateful that God has blessed me with the honor of raising you, little boy! Where to begin with all the things that have happened this year?! The last time I wrote you a letter, you were cruising all the furniture and mostly just babbling, and now you are running and chatting up a storm! In March, we went on a Spring Break trip with Gammaw, Pup Pup, Uncle John and Aunt Denise to North Carolina. You had taken some wobbly steps independently but you were by no means walking as your primary mode of getting around. By the time we headed home, you were confidently walking around the beach house! It was astonishing to see ...

       When I sat down to write this piece, I wasn’t sure where to start. I have so many experiences related to my own insecurities, both in pregnancy and motherhood after loss and infertility, and in my life outside of that experience. Which stories are worth telling? Which ones are most relatable? Which ones will connect most to what I’m learning from God about insecurity and confidence? Out of sheer curiosity and with the hope that it might spark an inspiration for which story to pick, I googled the official definition of “insecurity.” It’s not like I don’t know what the word means; I’ve lived and breathed the word for most of my life. But I thought maybe reading the textbook definition would point me in the right direction for where to begin. God sure knows what He’s doing. The first definition of the word reads, “ uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.” This is exactly what I’m feeling right now- uncertainty about myself as a writer. Do ...